an eLucky day! the Commando Pro Knife Set 80% Off retail/ these days this seems appropriate along with the electric water fork automatically acing the retina...yes santa is closin in...

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the payoff

he sold his 98 mustang
convertible
to a local small car
lot dealer and made
the transaction
without me
being there
i sleep
with mark
and he pays
some
of my bills and
we go off gambling
together it’s
an arrangement
now i
could have and
would have
wheel’d and deal’d
for at least
another coupla
grand and
he profited
only 1800$’s after
payoff in
my opinion
car dealers
are the worst
slime bucket rat bastard
smalldick ripoff artists as
are life insurance
real estate
your estate sales
representatives plagued
with bad
breath
and
that’s probably
the main
reason why
i wasn’t invited to
tag along
with
mark sometimes
thinks i have
too much mouth

he had the check
written
in my name
he knew i had
access
to immediate cash
resources
i cashed the check the check
1800$’s and
he paid
late bills late
charges associated with
the late bills and
he paid my van insurance in
exchange for
later sexual
favors it’s
an arrangement then
we drove
the expressway
to atlantic city
gambled
the rest the rest
3 hundred dollars
each
we
lost
fast drove
back over
the twin bridges to
his duplex
just into
delaware line
to wilmington
he rolled a fat one and
we talked
about where he
would find another
high paying position like
the one he lost
a month
ago
i left an hour
later with
out sex

a week later
i drove over
the walt whitman bridge
to oregon avenue
philadelphia
5 mins from
nj
where
frank
owner of the check cash
informed me
that the 1800$
check
came back
nonsufficient funds

o fuck i said

frank said O.K.!
frank tries
to get in my pants
everytime
i walk in the door
frank has no front teeth
frank’s out

no frank i mean fuck
now i owe you 1800 bucks
can i use your phone

frank shimmied the phone
through the slot
beneath
the plexiglas
window

i phoned mark
cellphone to cellphone
the answering machine
picked up
...leave a message after the tone...

tone this asswipe that
1800$ check bounced
now
what
i hung up

i’ll be back frank
with
your money

ok darling take
your time

frank handed me
a 25 cent purple
see through
glasslike lighter and
a copy
of the bad
check

i drove
straight
to the car dealer
where mark
sold the
mustang
convertible

i swear
jimmy walker
walked up
to me

who runs this clipjoint
i asked

well i do right
now jimmy walker
replied

hey tell me something

yea

what happened to that
shiny black mustang
convertible that
was for sale
rotating high on
that sky ramp
last week...

o that sold the same day
we got it in
are you looking
for something in
particular

well yes
i am
i’m looking for a good check
to replace this god damn bad check
for which was payment for
that shiny black mustang convertible
that you sold the very same day
you got it in and
i held the copy
of the bad check
under his
wide nose close enough
he could sniff
the ink from
the paper

o - i’ll hafta call the boss
the young bony kid was
panicked
as he fumbled fast through the office
door picked up his cellphone
poking prodding
all kinds of numbers nervously and
then he placed
it on the desk

well ...?

i hafta wait til
he calls back

well i don’t hafta wait til
he calls back and
i picked a tablet up and
a pen
wrote my name and
address and said
now you can tell that
swindler be at my house
pronto else i’ll be
at that police station
across the street faster
than a Jimmy Walker stride

i left the lot
turned right then
left right into
duncan donuts shop
ordered 2 large coffees
stuck in a corrugated holder and
i drove away from the driveup and
as i passed the car lot
jimmy walker
flounced out onto the highway
waving his stickman arms
slowing me

hey he’s pulling into the lot now
he’s got the cash in his pocket

i pulled into the lot
the weasel apologized all over
the place counted out
1800$’s in 50’s

and that will be
35$ for returned
check fee

he paid the 35$ fee

i drove over the
walt whitman bridge to
the check cash paid
frank the 1800$
he didn’t charge me
a returned check fee but
he offered me
a job as a bad check
collector and then
handed me
a royal blue
see-through
25 cent
glasslike lighter

make that 201 pretty see-
through glasslike
lighters and
35 extra $’s

 

when i was 17

i was 17 when
i first touched
myself i
wasn't 'allowed'
to do that
before that
disgusting
dirty unacceptable
filthy
piggish behavior mom
described
‘it’
there

is

no

escaping

the

deepest

eternal

depths

of

hell
when
you do
those
nasty
things
she’d holler
workin’ that sleek stern forefinger
inTO_my_face
(probably after she got
done doin herself i
thought)
DO YOU HEAR ME?
o i heard her alright
but i also didn't hear
her mention
a thing about
anybody else
not
touchin
me.........................

 

(excerpts from my next chappie untitled at the moment)

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